In the past 2 weeks as I was getting ready to publish "Steps to Adventure" I was hit with a substantial spell of negativity. I couldn't get out of my head and my own self-judgement. This lead me to not wanting to publish my 4 years of work (not work in the sweat and pain sense, but gratifyingly difficult work), knowing it will never be "perfect". However, I was aware of what was going on in my mind. Even though I felt stuck in the negativity, I could still hear my "Inner Compass" telling me it was good and even perfect in my own creativity, that I was meant to share the love and light I put into the words with the world. And as for society's traditional definition of perfect, I nor any artist would ever share anything with others if we waited for "perfect", leaving the world a whole lot less colorful.
As I finally reflected one evening in my journal, I narrowed it down to 2 main reasons on why this negativity was falling upon me.
1) Whenever you shine your light with the world, darkness becomes fearful and does anything it can to put out that light. I was about to share a lifetime of trials and tribulations, lessons I essentially learned from climbing my way out of the dark. Darkness wanted to put up one more fight, but like always, I wasn't going to let it win.
2) While my ego has never been exceptionally huge, this was still a good reminder that I have a whole lot of learning left to do. Just because I'm publishing a few steps of my wisdom doesn't mean I know it all. Sometimes I even have to go back and look at the steps and remind myself to practice the lessons. Actually, "sometimes" is putting it lightly. I constantly have to remind myself of all the tools I possess to help me live my fullest life when I am constantly growing and striving towards my best self.
And so here I am. Finally ready, or at least as ready as I'll ever be. So without further ado:
Steps to Adventure: Your Personal Guide to Living the Adventure of Your Dreams (Links to Amazon Kindle)
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