This blog briefly reflects upon my adventures in both running and life, and what I've learned along the way.The purpose of documenting these adventures is partially a meditation tool for myself, but also to help you and others learn with (or from) me. Our journeys may be separate, but we can all push eachother to reach our peak potential.
in the middle of a forest.The trees are
thick with a vibrant shade of green, but peaks of sunshine still manage to seep
through.Purple, pink, and orange
flowers line the either side of the trail.To the east I can hear the gentle babble of the sparkling blue river I
just crossed.To the west, large purple
mountains clash with the clouds, dotting an azure sky.When people talk about things being
beautiful, a day being perfect, this is surely what they mean.
I have not been able to fully appreciate all the natural wonders around
me.I’ve gone mile without picking my
head up.The constant chatter in my head blocks out the chirping birds, the
light wind brushing the leaves, and even the crunch of my footsteps on the soft
dirt trail scattered with twigs.My
vision is skewed, not because of a lost contact, but because I am too busy
searching for another trail.
passed another trail a few miles back heading towards the south, and another a
few miles before that heading toward the east.Neither felt quite right, so I kept going.Now I am second guessing that decision. I
know there are a few more side trails coming up ahead, but will they lead me in
the right direction?Where am I going
anyway? I think I am…
maybe no quite lost.
term “wander” probably best explains the past 2 years of my life.According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary,
it means to:
to move about without a fixed course, aim, or goal
b: to go idly about
to follow a winding course
to go astray (as from a course) :stray <wandered away from the group>
c: to lose normal mental
contact : stray in thought
<his mind wandered>
from 3b, I’d say, yes, that is about right.
college, I thought I had a clear vision of what I wanted to do with the rest of
my life.How quickly that all became
blurry. For starters, things happened
that I couldn’t have predicted.Then I
began to learn more, read more, and do different things.My thinking began to change.This took effect on the ideas I had for
myself and my future.
times, I became frustrated.I knew I was
on this Earth for a purpose, but what the heck was it!?Too many times, I let my frustration turn
into disappointment, bringing me to tears.Running was not the answer, nor were the two jobs I tried out.Life satisfaction was a far off concept for
wandered.And I’m still wandering.But I think I’m getting closer to that one
path, that one trail that was meant for me and me alone.
thing is, I’m getting there because of all the things I’ve learned along the
way in these past two years.I’ve
learned I hate driving an hour to work, in a busy and crowded city.I also hate dressing up and wearing heals.On the other hand, working with kids in an
unstructured environment isn’t for me either.
learned people can’t read my mind.Sometimes, I just need to say how I feel, even if that’s not that
natural thing for me to do.Communication is key.
learned to be me, and I’ve learned what I value.I like to be warm, happy, an d well fed…but I
don’t need a whole lot.I don’t really
like BIG things, just small, simple things…and things that are as eco-friendly
learned I love running...but not when it becomes my forefront.Then it becomes work, and with that comes
unnecessary pressure.I like running for
its serenity, and how it enhances who I am.
re-learned what my values and my morals are.
list goes on and on.
these things have helped shape who I am, and expanded my horizons.
only I would have slowed down, picked my head up, and enjoyed the views along
I was wandering.But, as it turns out,
wandering is what I needed to do.I may
have gotten a few bumps and bruises along the way, but my wandering wasn’t
really such a bad thing after all.
haven’t done too much research on the subject, but I don’t think I’m alone in
my experience of these “wander years”.Actually, I think the majority of the population goes through the same
thing.Usually though, it’s given a
adults, it’s most often known as a mid-life crisis.For teens and young adults, they’re either
lazy or “dreamers” who need to come back to “real world”.
are the exceptions of course…
are the child prodigies and young entrepreneurs, some millionaires before they
reach adulthood, who know exactly what they were born to do.Then there are those who have a calling so
strong that they know, even when still playing in the sandbox, that they were
meant to lead, preach, or heal.
hard not to be jealous.
truth be told, we are all meant to be on this earth for some reason, and most
of us have to do quite a bit of digging to get there.And that’s okay!Because it is when we wander that we make
mistakes, we fall, and we learn.It’s a
time of exploration, self-discovery, and beauty…if only we take the time to
pick our heads up and enjoy it.
it’s unfortunate that our society looks down on wanderers, instead forcing many
people to take on jobs that they really don’t enjoy (yes, you can find meaning
in those jobs too, you can find mean in your life in anything you do, but that’s another blog!).Recently, I listened to an audio CD, “Thrive”
that listed Copenhagen, Germany as one of the world’s happiest places.A huge reason for this is because people have
the freedom to try different job without fear of debt or others’ opinions – the
sacrifice is that the majority of a person’s income goes to taxes, but hey, who
cares if you’re happy!]
hope in writing this blog is to encourage others to embrace their “wander years”
because they are an important part of our lives.It takes a lot of trust in oneself, and maybe
a Higher Calling, but there is no point in worrying or getting down on yourself
in these years.Our wander years having
meaning and purpose, whether they are spent exploring the mountains or working
at a restaurant just to get by.As long
as we don’t give up and believe in ourselves, we will all find the direction we
are supposed to be traveling in and reach our destinations…or destinies.
wander on my friends, and enjoy the adventure.
(This is a necklace Sandi got for me towards the end of college)