Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Run or Die: A Book Review and Reflection on a Very BIG Question
RUN or DIE – Killian Jornet
Anyway, my “answer”, or Killian’s answer, never came out straight forth. Deep down I knew that it wouldn’t be. It is not a question that has a definable answer, especially when it will be different for everyone.
My old reasons still have truth. I do run because I believe it makes me a better person, because it is my tool for learning, and opportunity to inspire others, and something I love doing.
But does that love count when sometimes I’d like to stay wrapped under my covers or procrastinate in the heat of my car before opening my door and getting Pacer out of the back?
Or what about the other day as I was almost cringing in agony as others discussed my running career as admirable, when I think of my past races with pride for overcoming the pain, but the times and actual win as unimpressive. I felt like anything but a runner at that point.
And yet today I went for a run, Pacer at my side, and I felt like a runner…and not just a runner, but an adventurer. I ran slowly when I felt like it, and a little faster at other times. I even let out a holler at the top of one ridge line, happy to be running and alive.
Is it enough to run (and run more than as a simple hobby or exercise routine) simply because it is good for my body, for my mind, and my spirit- even when it has no direct affect on others? It is enough to run because I love the act of it, and the vibration of joy I send out from my spirit in my strides seeps into the energy of the world? Is it okay if I don’t have a solid answer to give?
Im pretty sure I won’t die if I don’t run, but I think Killian meant the title as being more than that anyway. Because, in the end, running isn’t really just running.